Global Emergency: The question I have asked myself is how not to lose my balance & my sanity of mind…

In Italy we are reaching the limit of an unsustainable situation, in which our freedom as citizens is limited as if we were under house arrest: soldiers patrol the streets to control who and why people move, there are drones that guard from above a city now ghostly.

In a video shot by a drone I can see my abandoned city, lifeless and this has affected me deeply. I’ve never thought I love Turin so much…

Empty streets, full head. We are all isolated inside our homes, the only noises that come from outside are the singing of the birds and the sirens of the ambulances: a dystopian or science fiction movie scenario, such as “Day after”. In a video shot by a drone I can see my abandoned city, lifeless and this has affected me deeply. I’ve never thought I love Turin so much: we usually take it for granted that life flows naturally in the city where we live, with all its traffic of busy people who animate it. On the contrary, now, it seems that the city is sadly calling us, like a cat who has been shut up outside and asks to be allowed back into the house.

In this global emergency situation, the question I have asked myself is how not to lose my balance and sanity of mind . I’ve always been a very active woman and I’ve always nourished my spirit with constructive projects and ideas, I’ve always thought of loving my life and being exactly at the center of it. But now a doubt has arisen: who am I REALLY? Am I my plans? Or maybe the things I do? What is my being made of?

These days of forced imprisonment, during which we are forced to stop all our work or passion, are leading me to remodel my life. My priorities do not change, because those remain the same: affections, friendships and love for nature, in particular for wolves and their environment. However, I am shifting the center of gravity between my outside and my inside, I am going deep inside to find the identity of my life, something that says I’m alive and defines me as a person.

Surely I am a dreamer and curious: I know that without studying, reading and a positive reaction to this dramatic situation, I could not survive much without getting depressed. I discovered that there are totally useless and “unproductive” things that make me feel good if I do them, for example yesterday I danced to the notes of a loud music, moving my body, loosening up as only children can do.

In Italy we are reaching the limit of an unsustainable situation, in which our freedom as citizens is limited as if we were under house arrest: soldiers patrol the streets to control who and why people move, there are drones that guard from above a city now ghostly. I don’t think we will hold out much longer without some form of rebellion: we are used to a democratic regime that has now unexpectedly turned into a form of sanitary dictatorship and we don’t like it. We are a people full of imagination and unexpectedly strong: we know how to deal with problems lightly and cheerfully…. We will see: we are used to saying: who will live, will see!

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Me working at my desk.

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Me ready to go out for supplies.

Author: Brunella Pernigotti

I am a lover of wolves and of Nature in general. With the means of knowledge and awareness, I try to devote myself to the protection of the environment and of the endangered species, as far as I can do. I live in Turin, Italy. I’m a teacher, a writer and a photographer. I published a novel and a book of tales and have to my credit about ten one-man exhibitions of photos. I’m member of the board of a no-profit association of Turin, “Tribù del Badnightcafè”, that organizes cultural and artistic events. Besides I created a group of volunteers to help women who are victim of domestic violence.

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